Love Yourself So No One Has To

Kiana. 17. Canadian. Pansexual.
Interested in crime.
I have a lot of problems.
I used to be trig-ger
notenoughtosurvive is my best friend and my baby
thereisnohopeformehere is my lady lover

dichotomized:

The suicide note. A collection of words written impulsively in a crazed frenzy, or carefully, thoughtfully agonized over, so each word fits and flows seamlessly. Highly choreographed, overly manipulated, driven by madness, or calmly articulated - it doesn’t matter. Each note is the same, each note is different - a last word leaving no room for rebuttal. Suicide notes are meant to explain, revoke sympathy, provide understanding, answer questions, or create new ones. They beg for forgiveness, confess deep, dark secrets, or attempt to hide things. Some point fingers, sharing the truth and thus setting off a spree of investigations.

Excerpts from some famous suicides:

Jules Pascin:  “Lucy, Pardonnez-moi,”

Hunter S. Thompson: Football Season is Over. No More Games. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun for anybody. 67. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. Relax This won’t hurt.”

Sylvia Plath: “Please call Dr. Horder.”

Dorothy Dandridge: “In case of my death, to whomever discovers it, don’t remove anything I have on - scarf, gown or underwear. Cremate me right away. If I have anything, money, furniture, give it to my mother Ruby Dandridge. She will know what to do.

Virginia Woolf: “I feel certain that I’m going mad again. I feel we can’t go thru another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do.”

Spalding Gray: “It’s an old story you’ve heard over and over. My life is coming to an end. Everything is in my head now. My timing is off. In the last two years I’ve had at least ten therapists and all those shock treatments. Suicide is a viable alternative for me instead of going to an institution. I don’t want an audience. I don’t want anyone to see me slip into the water.”

Wendy O. Williams: “I don’t believe that people should take their own lives without deep and thoughtful reflection over a considerable period of time.”

Clara Blandick: I am now about to make the great adventure. I cannot endure this agonizing pain any longer. It is all over my body. Neither can I face the impending blindness. I pray the Lord my soul to take. Amen.”

James Whale: The future is just old age and illness and pain…. I must have peace and this is the only way.”

Sid Vicious: “We made a death pact, and I have to accomplish my part of the deal. Please bury me next to my baby. Please bury me with my leather jacket, jeans and motorcycle boots. Goodbye. With love, Sid.”

Per Yngve Ohlin: “Excuse all the blood.”

dichotomized:

Marie Becker, 59-year-old widow, in the dock in the Palais de Justice here as she went on trial accused of murdering ten women and one man with poison and attempting to poison five other persons. Becker, who begin her poisining spree with her husband and then her lover then moved onto elderly victims, whom she is said to have met in a Liege park. Becker often convinced the victims to allow her to be their nurse and then to have poisoned them for their money and other valuables. She was convicted and spent the rest of her life in prison.

dichotomized:

Marie Becker, 59-year-old widow, in the dock in the Palais de Justice here as she went on trial accused of murdering ten women and one man with poison and attempting to poison five other persons. Becker, who begin her poisining spree with her husband and then her lover then moved onto elderly victims, whom she is said to have met in a Liege park. Becker often convinced the victims to allow her to be their nurse and then to have poisoned them for their money and other valuables. She was convicted and spent the rest of her life in prison.

shaniroti:

Happy September whoever sees this! May this wind down of Summer month bring light to things you needed clarity on, prosperity to you, positive energy for you, and encounters of positive people.

tallcheekylads:

Babes, it’s back! I repeat, it’s back!

vegemiteash:

sexycliffconda:

"So this are the boys you are in love with?"

ASHTON PUSHED CALUM DOWN. LOOK AT HIM.

dichotomized:

In his final jailhouse interview with the psychologist James Dobson, Ted Bundy was agonizing over how his addiction to hardcore pornography had ruined his life and how much it had contributed to his violent sexual urges. Midway into the conversation, the prison lights dimmed. Bundy reassured Dobson that the lights would be back on momentarily. Bundy knew the reason that the lights had dimmed. They were testing the electric chair that he would be sitting in at 7.15 the next morning.

dichotomized:

In his final jailhouse interview with the psychologist James Dobson, Ted Bundy was agonizing over how his addiction to hardcore pornography had ruined his life and how much it had contributed to his violent sexual urges. Midway into the conversation, the prison lights dimmed. Bundy reassured Dobson that the lights would be back on momentarily. Bundy knew the reason that the lights had dimmed. They were testing the electric chair that he would be sitting in at 7.15 the next morning.

welcometothe1jungle:

Mary Ellen Wilson had been a virtual prisoner inside her apartment and was beaten almost daily by her foster mother. Wheeler was exasperated to learn that the police had no authority to intervene under existing law. In desperation, she turned for help to Henry Bergh, founder of the American Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (ASPCA). With the legal assistance of the ASPCA, Mary Ellen was removed from her abusive foster parents, and her foster mother was sentenced to a year in prison. 

welcometothe1jungle:

Mary Ellen Wilson had been a virtual prisoner inside her apartment and was beaten almost daily by her foster mother. Wheeler was exasperated to learn that the police had no authority to intervene under existing law. In desperation, she turned for help to Henry Bergh, founder of the American Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (ASPCA). With the legal assistance of the ASPCA, Mary Ellen was removed from her abusive foster parents, and her foster mother was sentenced to a year in prison. 

dichotomized:

Hank Earl Carr moments before he used a hidden key to break out of his handcuffs, murder the detective to the left of him and the detective on the far right. He fled the scene in a stolen car, killed a police officer, and then took a pregnant woman hostage in a convenience store. He eventually took his own life.
He was originally arrested for shooting and killing his girlfriend’s 4-year-old son.

dichotomized:

Hank Earl Carr moments before he used a hidden key to break out of his handcuffs, murder the detective to the left of him and the detective on the far right. He fled the scene in a stolen car, killed a police officer, and then took a pregnant woman hostage in a convenience store. He eventually took his own life.

He was originally arrested for shooting and killing his girlfriend’s 4-year-old son.

thedeathmerchant:

Criminal cries

phyerfly:

i felt like i connected a lot to the stickers at the greenhouse today

RARE WORDS

acosmist - one who believes that nothing exists
paralian - a person who lives near the sea
aureate - pertaining to the fancy or flowery words used by poets 
dwale - to wander about deliriously
sabaism - the worship of stars
dysphoria - an unwell feeling
aubade - a love song which is sung at dawn
eumoirous - happiness due to being honest and wholesome
mimp - to speak in a prissy manner, usually with pursed lips

camarillo-brillo:

Pretty sure last night was the most legendary I’ve ever had. I smoked cigarettes and drank with The Arctic Monkeys and Foster the People. Alex Turner let me fangirl, take selfies with him and kiss his cheek. I was THAT girl, and I’m 100 percent okay with it.

Side note : I wish I hadn’t drank so much. This hangover is brutal and I probably made an idiot out of myself but idc because Alex Turner. 

feminishblog:

sugaredvenom:

mattreadsthings:


fatswaggin
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Found this in a bathroom at my college. A lot of guys had eating disorders in football and wrestling at my school and even in the rec league. I remember guys taking laxatives before weigh ins even.

Male eating disorder awareness ~

Wrestling is infamous for that kind of shit. It’s one of the reasons my brother left the sport— his coaches were ENCOURAGING him to engage in unsafe behavior.

I’ve seen a lot of it the other way round, especially in rugby, I know several men who were encouraged to go to unsafe measures to gain weight.

Yes. ^^^ The masculinization of eating disorders. I knew some wrestling guys back in high school - it became this competition as to who could lose then keep of their weight the best. The guys would have competitions to see who could go the longest without eating, and if you lost, of course, you were a “pussy”

Thankfully a suspension went on while they reviewed these practices that were of course encouraged by the coaches.